This morning I had a discussion with a friend about her daughter who has recently gone to college and has gained some weight. Her clothing is not fitting, she feels uncomfortable and self conscious. Oh how this threw me back to that time in my own life!
Not knowing what I was doing with my studies, or my life, and seeking some comfort, I would turn overeat at meals to stay in the groove with everyone else. Then I faced the reality when I looked in the mirror, or got dressed in the morning. Food in these moments is a double edged sword. The satisfaction lasts only until you realize that you cannot eat anymore and you have to get onto whatever it is that you used the food to distract you from! A load of words, but probably a load that most of us recognize as familiar.
The reality of the double edged sword can range from self disappointment to self disgust to depression. What else do we do to distract ourselves? My mind is so sensitive and over the years I have had to reign in what I will allow as a distraction. Food remains one of them.